Friday, February 10, 2017

Unexpected life change

While I won't post details on here since this is for my children, I think this is a big deal that definitely changed our lives. On November 4, 2016, a man knocked on my door. Olivia and I had stayed home from school and my parents, Danyell and Kelly were here. Clearly God knew I was going to need their support that day. My dad answered the door and a man walked over to me and handed me papers and told me I was being served with divorce papers. I don't remember much over the next few mins other than I tossed them at him and said no over and over. I refused to look at them. My parents, Danyell and Kelly looked over them and I sobbed. The word divorce had NEVER been mentioned. I knew life wasn't just great at our house, but we never argued and I had no clue that John was done. I was devastated not only for myself but for my kids. How do you do this to children?! The problem was forgiven and I begged him to change his mind. He refused. For the next 90 days we lived under the same roof. Happy holidays, right?! I cried a lot. I begged even more. Olivia begged, but on February 4 we went to mediation. I told the mediator, when asked if there was anything I wanted to say, that I wanted John to know that I did not want this. I took vows and promised him, my family, his family and God that we would be together forever. Unfortunately, John signed all papers which left me no option. I saw his name on each and every paper and my eyes filled with tears. The last 18 years flooded my memories. We were no longer a team but two individuals who have to "co-parent" these two precious gifts that God granted us. I felt that I had truly hit rock bottom on that day. I came home and slept a couple of hours and then tried to jump back into life. Thankfully my parents and friends were able to carry me during and after this process. I was literally going through the motions of life.

 He moved out on February 8th and I still, even after papers being signed, begged him to change his mind. We came home to a lot of emptiness that night. I prepped the kids for coming home, and then made a joke out of it....because laughing is way better than crying!!! Olivia decided we had a huge dance floor! So we danced. That night, life began with just the 3 (ahem, 4...Oscar) of us.

Saturday, December 31, 2016

He's Baaack!

The beginning of December means our elf is going to return! Skippy showed up again this year. The kids were thrilled to see him each day and see what he had gotten into or what he brought them!

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Merry Christmas Eve 2016

We started our new normal for the holidays so on Christmas Eve, I spent the day getting things ready for Christmas while the kids went with John to his family Christmas. They came home late Christmas Eve afternoon and we headed over to mom and dad's for our traditional dinner and cookie baking (no pics since I was helping bake!) as well as getting their Christmas pj's and book. Then home to get some sleep and wait for Santa!!

Thursday, December 22, 2016

Christmas festivities

Making and decorating cookies with friends! 

Decorating our house with something new and fun! Olivia begs for these every year so I thought this would be a good year for them! 

Going to see Christmas lights! 

Christmas party at gymnastics.

Decorating at home.

School program and class party

Making gingerbread houses at Mammy and Buppy's.

Decorating Mammy and Buppy's tree. All I can think of when I see this picture is, "here Russ, work on this."

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Happy Thanksgiving

Since the holidays look different for us this year, we made the best of it. The kids went with their dad to eat at his mom's house. They came home and we headed to Mammy and Buppy's for the remainder of the day. All in all, we have much to be thankful for and enjoyed our day. I had dreaded it, but the sun still came up the next day!

 We are all done eating, but Easton wasn't....he wanted to keep his plate a bit longer to eat.