It isn't all bad, but I want to be sure that I stay real because I clearly have blocked this time with Olivia. I remember the long days and grieving, but not just plain anger. Every adoption is different, but I tend to question the people who say everything is just great all the time. It can't be great! He has lost everything. E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. His clothes, shoes, food, smells, omma, appa, home, and everything that has ever been familiar to him. It is heart breaking to watch and there is really not much I can do for him.
I feel like people that don't get adoption think that we are bringing home these 2 1/2 year olds (some older and some younger) and they simply fall into place. Um, no. We don't have weeks of a baby sleeping most of the day. He is simply a mobile infant at this point. He doesn't understand, listen, or care what we are saying. He is mad, alone and sad. He wants it his way instantly. My maternity leave is basically a time where he is getting to know us and getting adapted with himself here in his new surroundings. I think some people think the plane lands, we get over jet lag and I hang out at home eating bon bons while he happily plays. ;) Nope, the sad truth is that he will be really getting adapted better right when it is time for me to return to work.
He is having some happy moments. Today has been better until about 5:00 p.m. We have seen more smiles. He can say "more" in sign language and is starting to recognize us when asked to point to a person. He can point to his nose most of the time when asked to find it. He has started eating. He has eaten chicken, spaghetti, banana bread, yogurt, raisins, peanut butter crackers and goldfish.
Happiest in the mornings! (Thursday) Oscar loves food time with this kid! Easton thinks it hilarious to feed him.
Their first time to play together!! (Tuesday)
He loves to read books! (Wednesday night before bed)
John's dad came over to meet him Thursday. He was unable to get to the airport. They had fun playing 'cups.'
He really wants Olivia to play with him. If he comes near her she goes the other way. It breaks my heart for her to hurt. She has done some surprising things the last few days and I know it is out of jealousy or anger. I will be really glad when this phase passes for her. I thought we were getting better, but she has been really off tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will bring smiles and fun times here at our house. This part is definitely exhausting.